May 24th, 2006

Long time, no blog. It's been the same old story. Why is it that, and of course hindsight is a motherfucker, I made some very astute realizations in my last entry seven months ago that I hadn't acted upon? Lessons learned, my friend. Why did it take me so long to quit my job? There are some stories there, but I don't want to go on a tyrade just yet. Let us not focus on the past, that's well behind us, instead, let's talk about the future. Not just my future, our future. Are you with me? Good, I'm not schizo.

So yes, the job was officially quit and over a week and a half ago... I still have some business with them, but I really wanna try to keep the tone of this one positive. What now, then? Well, I decided that I didn't want to be in Chicago anymore. I'll be moving back to Buffalo tomorrow. I really don't want to have a job for a while, so the b-lo will be a good place to lay low so I can work on my own shit. The problem with me is the antithesis of most's (yes I just turned most into a pronoun, which you're able to possessify, and yes I just made up the word possessify) whereas it's not figuring out what to do, but what not to do. I've got way too many ideas floating around, too much music that needs to be played, too much art to be made, and a whole lot of traveling to do, so it's a matter of selective editing.

Here's what I have figured out so far. For the art and other ideas, I need a studio/ workshop, it's beyond necessity, it has to happen. Since making money isn't my primary concern, and being a part of a scene causes involuntary stomach contractions, smaller cities, especially ones with a lot of green space around them are ideal... hence buffalo again. Also, the idea of renting still seems senseless, and with real estate practically free there, you guessed it. I'd like to acquire a building of modest stature, more of a work than a live space, but you know I'd still rock the shit out of it, shaking the sawdust off the sheets before going to bed. I may even just buy a basic plot (which go for about $300 at the tax sale) and erect a simple steel building on a concrete pad... we'll see, this city is great at providing options.

The original plan was to have a new album recorded before I left chicago, but I haven't started on it yet, so it'll be done in buffalo. I was going to then use that as a launching pad for some summer traveling/ touring. That plan may be put on hold because of one important detail, I think I have a fractured wrist, and it fucking hurts to play. It actually happened like a year ago, bike accident, wiped out, landed funny, it seemed to heal on its own after a few weeks, but it never did. It started acting up again only a few days ago after a long night of intense practicing (it's my left, fingering hand). I'm hoping it'll at least go back to the stage of near normalcy it's been kept in for the past year pretty soon. I may get it looked at, or at least start wearing a brace or something. Anyway, I was planning on combining the lust for travel with my musical passion and organize a tour. Regardless, I want to travel this summer, with or without my guitar. I'd like to go by a free means of transportation (bicycle, hitching, trainhopping) if at all possible. Ideally, I would've liked to have my workshop already built so that I would've made my own helicopter or something to make the tour a little more interesting. You're darn right I'm gonna be the crazy guy at the end of the street.

That's enough for future speculations. I'm leaving chi-go on a positive note. I just took down my installation that I had up at OAO Gallery, and I think it went really well. Check out the